Nowadays, I'm getting bored and it is so unusual for me. I always find something to do. I don't let myself to be pointless, ı make myself engaged with something. A short time ago (about a month), I bought a coloring book for adults for fun. However, I was so busy with doing other things that I could hardly finish coloring just one page in two weeks. well, yes I'm saying that I'm bored but it is not like i have nothing to do. I need to prepare exam questions for my 7th graders and have some paperwork (l already missed deadline for them:) but still I don't feel like doing them. Am I having depression, I hope not.
I do not have time to sit and think properly so ı keep on forgetting daily things ı need to do. today ı forgot to take boardmarker with me and trust me it is weird to forgot for a t to forget it. ı just can't get my head together. I need some spare time to think properly. I don't have enough time even sleep till my head aches (it feels so bad, I actually don't want such an ache:) tomorrow ı have two hour free lesson, ı almost forgot it.
Today I saw hatred towards me in one of my students' eyes. It hurts for real and I can still feel it. Will I get accustomed to it? I'm not like I want to be, I want to be better. somehow it is still good because I'm afraid that one day I will say I'm done that is it. I'm still like a child, I will grow up and be a proper adult (someone in my age is considered as 'adult' but you know that age is just an number).
I feel sleepy now I hope I can sleep properly and have a fresh mind tomorrow morning.
Ps: I have B 12 injection on friday, my blood test results are not so brilliant.
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