NOW, I hate myself...

I've been struggling for one for two month and now it's deadline and I hate myself for not finishing it and instead of doing what I supposed to do I kept on doing other irrelevant things. I don't know whether I got lazy or I'm not doing it because I didn't like it - I can't say that I hate it but what I hate is my not doing what I need to do. It is just a stupid dilemma...